Rush 2

As I think about desire, and the on-going question of "What Is Tragedy?" and/or maybe, "What has tragedy become?" (For it does not feel like a constant thing. Its maleable. Ephemeral. Like a cloud, then suffering into a thunderstorm. Beautiful and yet tragically cataclysmic to its environment.) I cannot help but ignore Citizen Kane and think on Hitchcock. 
Citizen Kane, and all its value, has no interest for me, with these questions. I think more of Hitchcock and his ideas of "Playing God."
Hitchcock once said in an interview, when asked why are his films so well received and famous, he replied with his concept of Playing God. He spoke about how he places the audience in a position where they have no control, but see everything occurring, and therefore crave control.
For example, in Psycho, the famous bathroom scene, we see a close up perspective of Marion Crane (Janet Leigh) showering and a shadowy figure slowly entering behind her. We (the audience) see that Marion does not see, and is indeed in direct relationship with a dark figure. This figure is not safe to her, the environment, or our relationship with Marion, for we have grown to become fond of her.
We see the figure kill Marion, and there was nothing we could do.

It is that, in of itself, the simplistic concept of, Nothing we can do, that I find most interesting and tragic of all. This can be related to scenes in Citizen Kane, amongst many other films. I think the concept shifts of course, because it is situational, emotional, political, and many other things, it shifts.. However, its constant shifting, and evolving, much like a virus, is what the media attaches onto and can create coverage so well. This relationship is merely the media covering on a specific event, and our relationship with the children and families in syria, through a newspaper, internet, or television, is just like our relationship with Marion. We (Western Americans) are distant. We are not connected. We cannot save her/them. We are voyeurs. And, the dark luminous figure, is the gas.

The media Plays God, just as Hitchock Played God with us.

Tragedy becomes voyeurism. Becomes mockery. Becomes a game. Becomes a monopoly. Becomes an enterprise. Becomes a neo-liberal governmentally. 

Rush 1

I attend Cornish this year as a Senior in the Theater department with an emphasis in Original Work. I'm also stepping outside of my major this year taking a Sculpture class. Using any medium at hand. Becoming a bricoleur instead of an engineer. An interesting, inspiring and engaging task. Outside I work mostly in Pike Place selling pasta. I'm a movie whore, so whenever I get a chance, that's something I'm doing. I love photography, collage making, and am also a singer/songwriter. These things I partake in a lot in my free time.
When I was younger an old friend and I used to make a web-series, that only really got as far as Facebook and Youtube, called OddMoments Productions, and weekly we'd put out a series of shorts. Extremely goofy, absurd, but fun. I've made a few shorts on my own but the only professional thing I have done was this last summer. I got flown out to Philadelphia and starred in an independent feature length about young punk kids in the 80s called The Bhakti Boy. (it's on facebook!) Which was an amazing experience. Television and I have always had a love/hate relationship. But movies and I have always been hopeless romantics towards one another.
I hope to expand my horizons and stretch my knowledge of this cinematic world.
For the final project, which I do not know yet, but I think, I want to do something collaborative, creative, engaging, thought provoking, using cinematography with an emphasis on performance art and interdisciplinary activities in a natural setting (outside of a classroom, and in a coffee shop, etc)